Seems like forever....

Since I needed to blog. Which I guess is a good thing...right?

Easter came and went, kids had fun and loved their camping stuff! They are officially ready for caburee in 3 wks!

Work has picked up. I'm now work 2.5 days at the office and 3 shifts at the hospital. Which meant I had to start the older boys in daycare. They have adjusted well. However getting up at 6am is playing a toll on poor Nathan. He's exhausted and by 6pm I'm fighting to keep him awake. 

Sleep is slowly coming back into my life. I may have solved the issue I've been having since starting program (well not. Program more of a prep diet for after surgery). With out really trying, I'm down 9 lbs in 3 weeks according to my moms scales. Not the best but I'll take it!

I go and meet with the surgeon in May 14 and should (fingers crossed) get my date and shakes before I leave the office!

I'm ready! I dont want to keep waiting but the longer I wait the more it seems like I may have to postpone till the fall. 

On the flip side of life, still no communicate between the boys and their dad. Wish I could say the same. He finally made a support payment (and still really far behind). He seems have an excuse for any question I ask. To the point that he said he wants to go back to court and change our agreement. I said sure.  Again it's over issues he doesn't seem to think are important and he should have to follow, yet are in place because of past and present actions. 

Long story short, he doesn't "believe" in supervised visitation and doesn't believe a judge will grant that to him (ya ok)

Over all life is good! Crazy busy, about to get busier as we gear up for summer soccer, with 2 participants (4 year old soccer should be fun). My next issue is how to get 2 kids to soccer on the same night, same time, but different places....sadly only about 1km apart but i have to stay in site for both. Wish I could clone myself somedays 

Now to bring on spring! The suns got to come out at some point...right????

🌞

Easter????

I know Easter is 2 weeks later then normal this year however I'm soooo not prepared. 

Sure I "talked" to the Easter Bunny about what gifts the kids could use. Explained the older boys could really use their camping gear for scouts and Narthan would really like to watch movies in momma van. 

But when it comes to treats is where the bunny and I have some issues. 

As much as I no longer enjoy Halloween because of Nathan's allergies, Easter is even harder. 

This year "we" have been able to find some peanut/tree nut free chocolates (2 different ones to be exact) but my kids aren't really into sweets. Alex doesn't eat any kind of gummy snacks and dalton and Nathan don't need the extra sugar. 

I remember when I use to go all out, Easter egg hunt, Easter baskets decorating! 

Now it's another dreaded holiday that I down play. 

I try hard not to let allergies run our lives, and sure I could buy all kinds of "stuff" and still do a hunt, but the last thing this house needs is more STUFF in it. 

What are your plans???

I work all weekend at my hospital job, we will have dinner sunday at my parents but otherwise it's just another weekend around here!

New to me foot stool!

Ive realy been missing my lazy boy for the last couple months ...I mean really bad. Almost bough myself one a couple weeks ago but I can't part with my chair I have. Solution...foot stool. 

So I picked this up for $5 from one of our local FB selling groups 

I know...it's ugly! BUT it was the perfect size and at that price I couldn't make it!

To my shock the top is an old memory foam pillow!

 

I bought some material off of ebay!

And finaly put that staple gun to use!

The top is orange and white chevron cotton material!

The base is covered in chocolate brown crinkled cotton! (Yes I should have ironed the material but oh well)

at this point I ran out of staples 😫

So today Nate and I went to the hardware store while the older boys were at their art class

 

And this is what we ended up with!!!!!

I love it, it matches the living room perfectly and was less then $45😍

I have just enough of the chevon material left to cover the ugly throws that came with my couch. 

And this is what the boys made (I had to share cause they are beautiful, and I'm going to frame and hang them)

Alex's

Dalton's 

Enjoy the rest of the weekend and hopefully the sun is shining where you are!☀️

Dealing with disappointment

As adults we learn coping skills for when important people in our lives let us down but how do we teach that to our children?

I noticed last Friday that Daltons attitude, behaviour and over all personality where...off. I knew he was having second thought of waiting to have a summer birthday party and thought that maybe the issue. 

Saturday, he was at my parents while I worked. When I got there I was told he had done nothing but whined and cry the entire afternoon? I asked him what was up he said nothing, as his eyes welled up 

I asked if he was tired, mad, upset, angery?? 

"No"

So I kind of let it go as we started his Wii party. He was fine while we were dancing away and for cake. But when it came to open presents he was off again. 

He was excited about his gift (he got exactly what he asked for). Saturday night he had a sleep over at grandma and grandpas. He had a late night watching movies with grandpa, and an early morning so I figured Sunday (his actual birthdays wasn't going to be no better). Honestly we were all on pins and needles Sunday. 

We came home early after art class, Nathan, Dalton and myself where having breakfast for dinner and a movie night (Alex was sleeping over with Grandpa to watch wrestlemania). We had dinner, got set up to watch the show and dalton had a complete meltdown....tears, screaming, yelling, hitting, everything a 2 yr old would do. I physically had to take him to his room so he didn't hurt himself or anyone else. 

I let him calm down, went back said that once he settled down he was welcome to appoligize and join us. 

About 10 minutes later he came out, said he was sorry and joined us. 

After the movie, it started again. It was now bed time, school was the next morning, he was up late the last 2 nights. 

He wasn't tired, he wasn't going to school, he didn't want to live hear, he didn't want to sleep in his bed. This lasted about 30 minutes. 

I will admit I was done, it had been a long day/week, I was in physical pain for his last meltdown and I lost my cool. Told him to get his arse into bed, close his eyes, and stop crying. 

Not at all how I hoped his birthday would go but at this point it was out if my hands

Monday morning was no better, after school we got to relive the day all over again. This time it started over homework. He got 0/10 on his spelling last week and I made a change to how we will handle spelling, which lead to a 25 minute meltdown followed by tears (for both of us) and a feeling of defete 

I stood my ground, stuck to my guns and we were able to get spelling complete 

So this sums up how his birthday went...now the big question is why???

Well that's simple (or at least my guess as to what caused this is simple)...Dalton never heard from his father at all this weekend (or for the last 9wks) 

He is beginning to question where he is, why he stopped showing up and in his eyes (as well as most of us) his dad just doesn't care anymore!

The worse part, as hard as this is to say cause no parent should ever favor one child or another....Dalton's always been the favorite when it came to his Dad. He was always spoiled by him, he spent more time with him and they just got along. 

In the last 2 years since we split this has only gotten worse. 

Last year Dalton received about $150 worth of gifts from his dad. He was also the only child who actually received a call for their birthday. 

This year NOTHING, no call, email, text nothing. The day came and went and the closer bed time came the more you could see the disappointment in his eyes. 

I tried talking to him, asking questions, reassuring him we all still loved him but at the end of the day, it's his dad he wanted. 

He say he know we all love him and will always be here no matter what but doesn't understand why his dad couldn't even call. 

I pray this isn't his only memory of this birthday and I pray I have the strength to keep moving forward as a single parent!

Somedays are not easy I tell ya!

9 years ago....

We were all crowded in a hospital room patiently waiting for my time to go to the ER!

Not so patiently waiting to find out if the newest bundle would be a boy or a girl???

Most people had bets in a girl but I had my doubts. 

I woke up after my csection to find out I had a 10lb 4oz bag of potatoes with a side order of gravy ...so the Doctor told me! 

It wasn't till I was fully awake and back in my room that I found out that we were welcoming a baby boy!!!!

He was soooooo cubby. His rolls had rolls, he had a double chin and a full head of jet black hair!

This is Mr Dalton at 8 wks old (sadly I can't find any new born photos on my computer)

He had grown into such a kind hearted, gentle sole, he would give you the shirt off his back if he thought it would make you smile! 

9 years of ups and downs, ins and outs, and we haven't even hit the teen years yet. Out of the 3 boys Dalton has been my most trying child. He is stubborn like dad and if he doesn't want to do it he won't, he is a cryer like mom, and when mixed with daddy temper it's like a bomb waiting to go off. 

He will try anything once, is adventuress, talented and as I learned last night he's got rhythm??? 

(No idea where that came from?)

As I spend the day celebrating 9 years of being this little mans mom, I think back and smile! Even on the worse of days, I can think back to when Dalton was 13 months old, he climbed out of his crib and decided he was going to join me in the shower...clothes an all!

I hope you never lose your enthusiasm, your adventurest way and never allow your aneixty stand in the way of reaching your goals....I'll love your forever!

That much closer

So yesterday was my BIG day in the city!

It went really well and was overall painless😜

I have been cleared/approved for surgery. I have a phone interview with the social worker in 6 wks then I can book my appointment with the surgeon (which means I will be given a surgery date!!!!!)

I'm over the moon, I'm nervous, I'm exhausted and most important I'm READY!!!

I'm the mean time while I wait for my phone call, I'm on the hunt for a new OB/GYN to figure out what's going on inside me!

I'll spear you the details but I ask....a 73day cycle is normal...right?!?!

Have a great week everyone!

P.S. I took my before photos Tuesday morning before leaving the motel. I will spare you the horrior till I have some after photos!