The past couple days have been great! Saturday my parents watched the older 2 boys and I was able to escape for the night with only little man (still cant leave him). I went out for dinner with "the rock" something that the 2 of us have not done in almost 3 yrs. Afterwards we went back to her place and talked till the wee, and I mean wee hours of the morning. After what turned out to be a "nap" I headed home to spend the days with my parents and kids!!!
My mom was nice and took the older boys out to buy me flowers and a card for my birthday (which for some stupid reason I thought their father may have a clue and have at least bought me a card from them...wrong again). They even made me a wonderful cake ( once I figure out how to post pictures I will...lol) They were SOOO excited to surprise me. We spent the afternoon at the movies and then home for a family dinner!!!
As I enter my 32nd year, I know that the best is yet to come, life can only get easier and better from here. I know that as soon as my finance improve, so will me life in general. I wont have to go back to work till little man starts school (still cant even imagine the stress that will bring), I will survive with out "the ex" and I will at some point allow people into my life. As strange as it sounds and feels, I truly miss just having someone to talk to (not on the phone, or because they stopped by for a visit but just to talk about absolutely nothing yet everything). I cant even image what "dating" could be like, the last time I did was 14 years ago....a lot has changed since then. People have changed since then, and in ways I haven't, in ways I wont or cant. My kids will always be my 1st priority and I know that the next person in my life will need to understand and except that.
In some strange way, I'm excited for that stage to start but also not ready to even imagine what that journey will be like
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