One Year Later

A couple weeks ago, I thought it would be smart to restart blogging!, However that night I started reading previous blogs....BIG mistake! 

It brought back so many emotions that I wasn't prepared to deal with again, yet allowed me to see how far I have come.

I thought I had deleted all the other posts, but tonight as I rethink what I want my blog to be, I decided to keep them, as a reminder of just how much I have changed

So you don't have to go back and reread them, here's a quick summary before I move on....

January last year after 14 years of being together, my husband decided that our family wasn't what he thought it would be. Instead of coming to me and allow us the chance to work on it, he decided to move on. I found out 1 year ago tomorrow (Jan 7, 2012)

So lets move to present day,

I'm happy to report that not only am I but also my boys are adjusting very well to our new family, don't get me wrong we have had a hard battle and still have some kinks to work out but have almost turned full circle.

I am truly blessed to have the people in my life that have stuck with me threw all of this....there aren't many, but at least I have weeded the bad ones out. I have been able to reconnect to a lot of friends that I had once pushed away.  Why, because they were trying to warning me, they were trying to protect me.
No my relationship wasn't abusive, in the physical sense but looking back emotionally it wasn't healthy either. I don't want to dwell on what I cant change, but the man I loved for 14 years is not the man that I'm currently forced to raise my 3 children with :-(

Since my last post ( which was on my 32rd birthday) I have been able to get my children back on the right track. My oldest son (10) was diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome in June (prior he was, add, anxiety, SPD). My middle son (7) is in the works, and my youngest (2) well lets just remind you he is, let say....cute! Its a good thing too, because man oh man, he is a hand full. On top of food allergies, kidney problems, and an attitude, he is so much like myself and his grandfather, but had the temper of his father (Cheeky but not always in a good way).

Another thing about my children is the all 3 have sensory processing disorder issues. For those who don't know what SPD is, it a condition that exists when sensory signals don't get organized into appropriate responses. For example, my oldest (up till June) had issues with textures. He wouldn't eat certain foods, or touch items if he thought the texture was different. He often plays with toys that are meant for much younger children and only have one correct out come (shape sorters).
My youngest son is the complete opposite, he is a sensory searcher, meaning that he has more energy then anyone I have ever seen, he is always, running, jumping, climbing, throwing, tasting, touching, getting into anything and everything. He doesn't realize how dangerous some situations can be. He thinks nothing of opening the oven (whether its on or not) to use the door to climb onto the counter. I'm not just talking abut one time or even 2 times either, no matter what I do (child locks, follow him, discipline him) he doesn't understand just how serious some situation can be. (not to make light but one day he climbed up the counter, walked across and climbed up on the fridge, when I went to get him down....he jumped) No I'm not one of those parents who don't watch their children when these situation occur, if anything I'm the complete opposite. There are many days when the only time I get to sit down is to pee, and YES I have to take him with me!
My middle son is another story all together. I'm still coming to terms with his "issues". We have a appointment at the end of this month to help get the ball rolling on help for him. (will explain in another post)

I feel like I have so much to share and don't want to make my post to long, so I will break my posts up to help keep them short....please forgive me if I tend to repeat some information. My goal with this blog it to someday help another mom or dad, who happen to be going threw similar situation.

Hope you will start or continue to follow our journey on the road to happiness!!!