Well I should say where I was last year, all I can think about is how hurt and pissed off I was at what was going in in my life, how mad I was that their father had chosen not to attend middle mans birthday (not that I know how I would have been had he, but as a parent you would think you would want to be there...right)
Here I sit a year later and realistically, yes I'm personally in a better place, but the issues I'm dealing with for the kids is getting worst, their father isn't helping that situation. Every time I think we have turned a corner, he turns back and things go back to where were a year ago.
Anytime we have a good talk (not that I encourage that, but we do have to talk at drop off n pick ups) by the end if the weekend something has happened an he starts another fight
We are all in knots the week before visits, and for about 2 days after they come home....so really that gives us 4-5 days if normal behavior and that's not working for me
No matter how many times I give him his out he won't take it, he says he loves his kids and won't ever leave, but then his visit comes and sure he physically shows up but mentally he's up at the North Pole visiting Santa????
I just don't understand it?
And because he is showing up ad is paying child support, I feel like all I do is fight to get my kids the help and support they need?
I'm sick of being told they are "disabled" enough for this or because of child support you don't qualify for that...I just want affordable help for my children...is that to much to ask for???
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