Monday, September 2, 2013

Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad!

This past weekend my parents celebrated their 34th Wedding Anniversary...something that most couple now a days aspire to do. 

They haven't had an easy marriage but they have stayed together and work threw their issues as a couple. 

I often use to say that I too hope to someday reach these milestone in my relationship, my parents are the only ones in either side of my family who have only been married once, and stayed together (other then my dads parents). The rest have all been married and divorced at least one time(some twice).

My moms parents (well her stepdad and mom) were together 25 years, decided to get married on their 25th anniversary and were separated 2 years later (a piece if paper can really change things THAT much???) I didn't know until my teens that my Papa wasn't her really dad or that Nana had another child from her first husband that we didn't see (not to mention that Nana also gave a child up for adoption when her and Papa first got together). But I guess every family has a story...ours just has many many bends in the road!

So as much as this post was to celebrate their anniversary, its also to let out some...not sure what word to use here....doubt? Anger? Hurt? Selfishness?

I thought my ex and I would also make it? I thought we would follow in my parents (and his) and be that couple that married once (so to speak) and stay together (his side isn't any better at staying together)

We had struggles, hard times, rough times but it seems like we had what it took to work threw issues and still be together?

Then January 2012 happened. 

So as much as I know I can't control what happened (nor understand what happened) I also now know that the chance of ever celebration a milestone like 34 years together (married or not) is slowly slipping out of my reach, and I don't see the count starting up anytime soon :(

 


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