Explain to me how you figure that you can't pay your bills, your child support or your debts but you can afford to go away???
You've been off work for 7 weeks, to seek medical help for a problem you apparently have yet, your away?
Your to "sick" to work, but healthy enough to take off?
You can't afford to visit your kids, you can't be bothered to call, you were in town and didn't have time to stick around to see them??? How does that work?
It makes me sick to my stomach how easy you have yet again let everything go!
25 months ago you walked away from life, you've since remarried and here we are and now your walkin away from the kids again...it's been 48 days since you have talked to 2 of your children...the 2 that can understand, the 2 that remember what it's like to have a father around, the 2 that at this point have stopped asking when they will see or hear from you.
Yet to make yourself feel better, you playing the daddy roll long enough to go to a doctors appointment with the one child who's to young to know any better. He will never remember that you ever even lived here, he will only ever remember that you seem to come and go on regular bases.
Yet on the flip side, I should be happy! All 3 boys have taken this change so well. Their behaviour has improved 98%, they aren't sitting around on pins and needles waiting for their visit weekends. They no longer ask when they will see you, when your going to call, when they will be forced to go to your house.
The only question they have had is when they will be able to get their stuff from your house, which you so nicely packed it ALL up last week to send home.
Then today, I learn that the one reaponsility you did still have in life, you've screwed up on too.
Today I learn that because you can't/won't be an adult, my credit and name are being dragged in the mud.
I've worked to damn hard in the last 25 months to regain my credit, to get myself almost out of debt to let you reck it.
Lose your van, I could care less, it will just give you yet another excuse not to see the kids...right?
But know, at some point you will have to grow the hell up! Your almost 40 years old and have NOTHING to show for it...nothing!
Your children will remember all of this, they will see you for who you really are (sooner then you realize), they will have a say in how or when they let you back in their lives.
You have said for 2 years your biggest issue with me is that I mothered you, yet 25 months left on your own (even with a new wife) you have screwed up your life so much, you may never get it under control again.
You have ruined so many relationships, turned your back on anyone who truly ever cared about you (yet kept those that help you spiral). You once had a family (immediate and extended) who would and did do everything they could for you for a LONG time, now...you have a wife...and basically that's it!
Unfortunately, I'm stuck, I'm stuck dealing with you and your shit for at lease another 24 months. Most would say for another 15 years but honestly once my name is no longer attached to that loan...you can go. Do what you want with your life and be guilty free.
On a final note, your kids still have no idea what is truly going on. As much as I would love to tel them the truth, tell them know what a slim ball you have become, how everything that is going on is truly your doing and yours alone....I refuse to be that person. I refuse to yet again bail you out. They will know the truth in due time, for your sake I hope it's not Iate...cause your the ONLY one who's going to miss out.
Regardless if you choose to be in their lives they will grow up to be happy, heathy children who have positive male (and female) role models in their life, god willing they will never suffer cause you can't be a responsible parent, they will never go with out because they are raised by a single mom.
I will do everything I have to do to protect my children!
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