Is it honestly March already? This has to be the longest, coldest, snowiest, windiest winter I have ever lived!
If it is relitively nice out, and but nice I mean no more then -15 it's snowing buckets and buckets of snow. Once the tempature drops below -16 we need to factor in the windchill which really makes it feel like -45 or worse. These winds are strong too (60+ km/h on a regular bases)
So we have the option of wind so cold your skin freezes the second you open the door OR sunshine and buckets of snow??? I'm not sure which I prefer at this point?
On another note, we had an early Sick Kids appointment this week (made the call to book for June and our urologist is leaving and wanted to see Nathan before he did) so with a weeks notice we made the trip. And to my suprise (and dismay) my ex decided to join us in this trip??? WTH???? He's been off work for a month, has made NO effort to see, call or talk to the kids but out of no where desides spending 5-6 hours with me and Nathan is a good idea??? Ummm ok...I'll play your game?
So I picked him up, then we boarded the GO train to the city.
Overall the day was good, Nathan ultrasound showed his kidneys are atill enlarged, he did his first flow rate test (now that he's completely trained) which showed his flow is 51% (goal is 90+). I will admit I was shocked the number was that low. When he peed he has a strong flow. He sounds like an old man who held it in till the very last minute and is about to burst. His testicle is still to high but it can actually be seen now!!! So unless he has a UTI we wait, again, for another year to redo all these test (emotions are very mixed on this desision)
Between the stress of our appointment, spending unwanted time with my ex and the bitterly cold weather I was beyond tired and sore by the time I got home at 8:30pm.
There is so much I want to say, yell and scream at my ex, yet I'm stuck having to hold it all in, biting my tongue while still trying to make casual conversation. Not an easy task.
I did learn, he has NO patience for Nathan at all! The little thing set him off to the point I had to tell him to keep his voice down.
In an attemp to give him yet another chance to show the kids he cares, I stupidly paid for everything Monday (train, subway, coffee....except his lunch, he wasn't smart enough to pack anything and I was damned if I was buying him food when we were eating from a cooler)
His wife did gave him money to pay for his expenses, but I thought I would nice. I said to him "seeing as your not working, why don't you come down to dalton soccer game tomorrow night, it's his last game if the season"
Thankfully I didn't say anything to Dalton, cause Tuesday came and went, and even though he said he would let me know if he could make it, I never heard from him all day.
I also said to him later Monday night in a text, "seeing as your here in town on Thursday for an appointment, why don't we meet up and you can spend some time with the kids before they go to cubs?
"Ummm...I don't know if I will have time?"
Seriously? First you use money as an excuse (can't this time cause your already driving down here) and now you don't think you will have time...nice!
It has been 31 days since a he has talked to the older boys. 31 days....no text, no calls, no face time, no emails, no communications what's so ever or even an attempt to communicate with them. The only time I have heard from him is if I text to ask about child support or to inform him of stuff that I legal have too (doctors appointments, Nathan's toe ect)
He has been off work for 27 days and has done NOTHING to improve his situation so he can go back.
I'm at the point that right now other then him paying support (when he starts again) it seems like he has no plans on starting visitation again. Which breaks my heart in one way, but on the flip side....my children's behaviour has improved 98%!!!!
Life is almost pleasent again, no fighting, no yelling, bed times a breeze, school is going amazing....it's been over 2 years since I've been able to say this!!!!!
Now if I could get rid of my stress!
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