At this point I can't really go into details (me and the kids are safe and healthy no worries)
My ex has made some long, hard, over due decisions about his life (weither on his own or by force) and after everything we talked about this weekend (financials) he dropped the bomb on me yet again.
So now just after I digested my budget, I need to digested our visitation schedule (and fast).
A friend told me in Sept 2012 that you will get to a point where you look forward to the "breaks" from the kids, it will make you a better parent, it will allow you time to recharge, it will allow you time to be a woman and not a mom 24/7. I told her she was out of her mind (she's been a single mom from day one). There was no way that my kids spending every other weekend away from me was ever going to get easier. In reality it hasn't gotten "easier" but the little break I get does give me that brief moment to stop and think and regroup. Nothing about visitations is easy in my word....NOTHING. Co-Parenting suck more then anything I've ever dealt with before (I'm sure with the right co parent it would be ALOT better)
But after 2 years in a round about way I'm getting what I've been asking for...weither that's a good or bad thing I've yet to full decide ....stay tuned as unfortunately my blog (Like my life) is going to get very emotional, very raw, and possibly dark (like the beginning)
BUT know this....at the end of the day, I will be stronger, I will survive and my children will have better parents!!!!
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