Getting back to things I enjoy!

I normally enjoy watching the Olympics (summer and winter) but I struggled so much to watch them this year. I had no idea why. I would start out think ok I want to watch the ski and bobsledding then when I would sit down I would get all fusterated with myself and change it. It took till last night for me to figure this out...sadly missing almost all of the Olympics. 

It was a small trigger, and to some it may sound completely rediculas but it was my ex! 

For year the two of us would sit together and watch, we would make the kids join us (neither of our parents were ever into them in that way) and we would make it a family event. It was the fact that when something happened (good or bad) there was someone else in the room that I could say "did you see that!" "Amazing" they deserve a higher score" but when watching alone (like a movie or show alone) I go to say something and realize...no ones there 😔

I'm starting to realize how lonely a life is as a single person with no social life. Sure I have friends, sure I could do stuff with them, but I'm the ONLY single person, I'm always the third wheel, and always feel like I'm intruding on "their" time. 

So today is the beginning of the Nascar season (another sport I've always enjoyed), I have not sat and watched a race in 2 season...in fact I always avoid it. This was something even before kids we would watch together...or listen if we were out on a run during the race. 

BUT this year, I'm going to watch! I'm going to start enjoying things and fight threw the triggers!

It may sound silly, it may sound like a pitty party but it's none of those, it's ME taking back my life (in small steps) and allowing myself to enjoy the little things again. 

So as the story goes....gentalman, start your engines!!!! 

I was a Ryan Newman fan last time I watched, let see if that still stands????

Enjoy your Sunday! 

It's been a good one so far here, we got up early and watch the men's hockey team win GOLD!!!!