It was totally a vent session, kind of like my first few post. Normally I try not to post like this cause I'm trying SOOO very hard to stay positive and keep drama and bull out of my life, my bestie is away on a long over due holiday with her family so I couldnt even vent to her. Well as you guessed, my iPhone froze, and when it came back the blogger app had closed and never saved the post....whomp whomp 😜
At first I was pissed! Technology and I don't always see eye to eye, however even though I didn't get to share with you exactly what cause my meltdown today, I do feel better for getting it off my chest! I feel better just getting it out there even if no one see or reads...which with only 2 followers (one of which is my bestie) not many people see anyways.
When I originally started this blog, I didn't care if anyone ever read it, if anyone even glimpsed at that was ok...this was 100% a selfish blog so that I had a way if getting everything out. Getting my anger, confusion, thoughts, fears, tears, screams, yells and all the other crap that goes with having your world ripped out from under you.
Yes I should have been talking with a therapist/counsellor but as a newly single mom who wasn't yet receiving child support, only worked part time and could barely afford to pay attention, this was the next best thing. Even with benefits ( when I had them threw him) no one would make an appointment cause they only really covered one session...stupid!)
So I went on a bit of a hiatus, I went almost 6 months of not blogging at all. And when I came back I was in a better place, life wasn't any simpler but I was starting to get the hang of being a single divorced mom of three boys (including finally getting a autism diagnosed for one of them)
One night I reread my posts, I was shocked! I knew I was mad/pissed/angry but I didn't know HOW bad I was.
Some things to this day still seems so raw and unreal.
My blog is now still a place where I come to vent, share and learn (from myself and from those I follow) so as mad as I was that blogger app didn't automatically save my post (as the computer does) I'm also kind of glad!
I was able to clear my head and get it out but I don't have to come back a reread it!
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