I was in a relationship where we both gained a lot of weight together and neither of us held the other accountable for our eating habits, our lack of exercise, or our over all health.
We didn't eat horribly, we just ate way more then we should and then sat around afterwards. As the children came it just got worse.
Well it's been 17 months since that relationship ended, I was on the right track, I had lost 60lbs, was going to the gym daily, I was loving life!
Then I had emergency gallbladder surgery and let's just say, old ways come back way to easy. I couldn't exercise for 4 weeks, I still ate fairly well but as you start to feel like crap, your earring habits tend to follow. Needles to say the weight came back, and with xmas just around the corner life was to busy to get back to the gym (yes I know, every excuse in the book). The new year came and I said ok now to get back on the right track! Then I had my health scare and another surgery (which took a lot longer to recover from then even the doctors thought)
Needless to say, I'm sick of feeling like this, I'm sick of feeling like I'm in a rut, I'm sick if trying to lose weight just to have to come back the moment I stop exercising. I have tried everything, I have done all the right things...I just need a boost! I need the kick in the ass to get this ball rolling.
As for the surgery, I know I should, I know I can, I'm just afraid of the what ifs!
What if it doesn't work? What if I don't recover fully? What if I lose the weight and then gain it back? They just go on and on.
Again I can come up with every excuse in the book (who would watch the kids? Who would help me?)
As much as I know I should, I don't know if I can???
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